attachment anxiety.

So I've been reading in Babyhood by Penelope Leach about the infant's attachment to the mother. One of the many helpful points is about how there is no reason to study an infant when it is left alone, because the presence of the mother (or caretaker) completes the infant's personality. The mother-infant relationship is essential to the infant's development.

And so now I realize that I've been trying to convince myself that I'm not that important to Atticus, because someday he'll leave me, and I won't be that important to him then. I don't want to go through the pain of my baby growing up, so I'm pretending it's already happened. Does that make sense? Uhhh... no. What a silly way to waste these great weeks, months, and years of a wonderful attachment and learning experience for both of us. I'm developing into a mother and I need him as much as he needs me. I have much to learn and to love, and I'm not letting it slip away that easily!

Also, I don't want to give him a complex. Ha.